Art Post - I guess I'm just sad

Samuel Sterns / The Leader & Bruce Banner / The Hulk (Marvel)

Yesterday my dog died. He was 3 and have been suffering epileptic seizure this whole time. We're used to deal with that, we have treatments, we know how to react. Be he died anyway, on his way to vet emergency. All I have left now is the pool of blood left by the wound in his head after he violently smashed it against the ground before we could hold him. I thought he would comeback, but he didn't. And what pains me the most is the thought of him dying in the arms of my younger brother, I can't seeing my siblings crying, it destroys me. I felt the need to draw something peaceful and silent to calm my mind, because all I can think about is his blood on my hands and his body shaking in my arm. It's a very simple art, I redrew a very common pose (excuse the lack of source but I really don't know who pulled it first, a shit tons of people have been redrawing it) because I didn't want to think my composition, I didn't want to think anything at all. I just needed some calm and some silence, a break from the sob and the painful screams I've been hearing for a whole day now. I needed to feel my pencil on my screen, because only when I draw do I feel at peace. I made it about my boys because I guess they need some silence too. Anyway, today I'm sad.