October Art Summary 2025
- lirhyapetitpain
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Sometimes I have a lot to say about something I drew. Sometimes I don't. It's hard to explain my art process because like I often say, it's reflex. You draw this like that because it reinforce this and you pick this color because it has this meaning and you take this compo because it means that etc... It's common sense to you so it feels irrelevant to talk about it and sometimes you don't even think about it at all. It's like explaining why you crossed the road to go to the grocery, it's common sense, you don't need to explain "well, there were a road to cross to reach the grocery store so I crossed it". Well, talking about art process often feel the same to me. I'm terrible with words, that's why I draw after all, to express what I can't properly express with words. Though, this blog have been helping a lot with that.
I really wanted to have a post for each of my arts and I first that's why I did. But I didn't want people to not read a post because "oh I already know this art and the process behind it is quite obvious enough". I want my art posts to stay relevant, to have people thinking "if there's a whole post about then there's more to read about" and have them click to see what I have to tell and not to just look at a pretty art. To think with me.
So I deleted most of the art posts I made, to keep only the ones where I'm talking about something.
(I need to find a way to make catchy clickbait preview pic for my blog posts also but y'know, not even to bait people into reading what I have to say but rather to show of my graphist skills. Gotta find the time for that, too, lol...).
The point was to keep people updated when I post something new without having to rely on social media. I'm not nearly as present as I use to be on them and even if I was, it's so easy to miss something. I don't want to spam my portfolio with every single arts I made either, that's not how portfolio work. I'm working on a full gallery, but still, the problem remains. How to keep people updated. So the best way for me to make a relevant post without flooding the others and somewhat diminishing my messages is to make a monthly "art update", or rather Summary because this word is catchier. I won't make these posts about "so here's what I pulled this month" only, I'll talk a lil' bit about each one of them.
I won't post "past summaries", because for one it doesn't make sense to new readers to have an introduction post coming after all the posts they already read about(not like I expect new readers who would go through all my posts tho but you never know what the future hold). Second, because I don't wanna flood my blog. And third, because I want this place to match the person I am now. Don't get me wrong, I like what I did in the past, but I grew and unless I already made a post about it here, I don't feel the need to talk about older arts. They're already very visible in my portfolio anyway. That being said, I'll make this first Summary about "a Summary between August and October" instead because I still wanna show of a few things I did since August that aren't interesting enough to have a full post for them (unlike most of my May to July stuff, tho I have yet to post them lol).
So let's do this in a chronological order. If there's a full post about it I'll just throw the link to avoid saying twice while I already said (and if I made a post about it that's because I had A LOT to say anyway).
August :
The artstyle is different from what I usually do because it's made after this and I like trying to stay as close as possible as the OG artstyle when I redraw something free to use. I think it's a good way to test new things you wouldn't necessarly think about otherwise and incorporate them in your own artstyle.
When I saw these little bases, I thought "damn, that's so MCU Samuce". It's something I like a lot about the MCU version of this ship, it's totally opposing their comics selves' one. Comics samuce is more of a tragedy, "let's suffer and be alone for all eternity together", an acquaintance if you will, of two cursed soul who can never get the full love of that one person they love (because Bruce can never be happy with Betty and Sam can never have Bruce's love since it belongs to Betty). While MCU Samuce is a more traditional "friends to enemies to lovers" kind of ship, they can both find mutual love and happiness in this relationship, it's more wholesome. While in both case I see the samuce ship as healing, I think it's a bit more obvious with MCU Samuce because we saw Sam actually breaking, suffering and changing. I don't wanna talk too much about MCU Samuce because I want to make a whole post about it and I won't talk more about comics Samuce either because I already did here, but anyway. In the MCU Samuce dynamic, they kinda "switched" their places (Sam being an happy little nerd who was helping the broken suicidal Bruce and Bruce becoming a happy little nerd while Sam became a broken homicidal) and all that because Sam helped Bruce. Sam probably feels a lot of ressent and animosity toward Bruce and Bruce probably feels a heavy guilt toward Sam. Both Sam and Bruce changed forever (I'll go back to that when I have time to pull the very small comics I'd like to pull, eventually, lol) and I like exploring that, having Sam being actually annoyed around Bruce instead of being so excited around him and his Hulk while Bruce would be all goofy and even somewhat needy around him when he used to be annoyed.
I know a lot of people hate MCU Bruce and I don't like him either. Or rather, I don't like how they didn't write him, I actually like the idea of a goofy Bruce who pretends to be at peace with himself when he's still full of traumas and looking very "cringe" because of how socially awkward these traumas led him (and I like Mark Ruffalo in this role, as much as I love Tim Blake Nelson and Edward Norton's chemistry, mostly because they have a personal history so it would have been very nice to have them interpret Sam and Bruce but as enemies, I think Mark makes a very great Bruce).
I see Bruce being needy around Sam as a way to show that. Bruce is someone who can be very egocentrical and selfish because he needs to be in control of everything, mostly to protect but it still leads to very toxic behaviors. It's more obvious in comics but it was shown when he literally abducted She-Hulk.
And I think Bruce would probably try to "force" Sam to be the man he used to be by being all happy and goofy around him and trying to have him smile as a way to heal his own guilt, y'know, thinking it's the right thing to do but also out of guilt.
I like to think Sam would be both overly confident (in a hot way) and very uncomfortable (in a cute grumpy way) with that kind of things. He would probably initiate touches, kisses, kinky stuff etc... Because, well, his big brain and pourcents would have him know when and how is the best way to do that (and let's be honest, the way he talked to Ross during the flight fight to have him Hulk out was very dom coded, he's probably crazy good at dom sex talk). But I think he would still be very uncomfortable when the affection comes from Bruce directly, because he needs to be in control too and it would destabilize him when Bruce is "leading", because (I'll go back to that below) I like to think he's traumatized by people's touches so he doesn't want it while craving Bruce's. Comics Sam is all ego and loneliness, he would act all tsundere with Bruce and pretend he doesn't give a shit about him out of fear of rejection while chasing him down. But if Bruce ever allows Sam to love him and accept him, he would be the one being needy, flirteous, asking for attention and love while Bruce would be more reluctant. For their MCU self it's the other way around. It's not that Sam is too egocentrical to show affection, it's not that he fears rejection, but rather because he doesn't know how to express affection anymore. All the people he had around him these past 16 years were people who dehumanized him and hurt him (literally tortured him). He's like an abused dog, he's scared of people as much as he hates them. He needs to keep his distance because he can't trust anymore.
Anyway, that's a too long rant for a 5min silly doodle lol, next one :
Every 3 months I draw chibi arts in order to turn them into stickers for my members. This one is gonna be sent in November (so you probably got it if you're reading this, or you'll get it soon if you leave outside France, I shipped them a bit late 'cause I had to wait for my pro card). I never drew MCU Sam before his mutation, how he was in Incredible Hulk. There's a few reason to that, reason number one being that it's hard to draw Tim Blake Nelson. I'm too big of a fan to fully enjoy what I do (though lately I've been enjoying the face I give to MCU Sam a lot), reason number two, he's too normal and hard to recognize if you don't know the movie (that's why I don't draw Bruce a lot without Sam either, in fact). Drawing Tim is hard enough, like I said, so imagine in a chibi version. When I draw Sam in his mutation it's easy, all you gotta do is put the green skin, green and white eyes and either a hood or his brainish difformations. But human Sam, it's more complicated. Though I think I did a very good job here. The quote "quod est superius est sicut quod est inferius, quod est inferius est sicut quod est superius" is the Latin for As Above So Below, an important quote for me because of its meaning of balance and harmony. I think Sam (and Bruce) is a good metaphor for harmony in his pure chaos, because of the way he always reject a part of him and cannot find happiness nor reach his goals because of that. Let it be comics Sam or MCU Sam, they both used to reject that darkness and anger in their heart while their Leader selves keep rejecting the light and kindness they used to feel. This is what this little chibi art represent. I think "as Above so Below" suits the Hulk lore very well, not just because they do have an Above and Below place and Gods that reflect each others because they are one, but also because I think it matches the whole "is he a man or a monster or both" idea.
It's about balance. There's good in bad, there's bad in good, the Ying and the Yang etc etc... Because as Above so Below is also meant to compare two things and make them whole. That's what this design illustrate. MCU Sam wasn't all goody goody before his mutation, that's why his accident happened. Because while he really wanted to help Bruce at first, he got consumed by his own ambition and curiosity. His MCU Leader isn't all baddie baddie because his rage is born of a need for justice, he wants to make a better place.
Not everything is fully wrong or right about Sam, he is human, that's all. And to be human he needs both his qualities and flaws, he needs both his Leader and his human self. That's why they both have only one wing. They oppose each others (the Leader's coat is sharp, his wing his dark, he looks grumpy while human Sam's coat is very roundish, his wing white, he's smiling. One has a Sun behind him, the other the Moon etc etc...) but also complet each others, thus why they have one wing, thus why their pose matches, like the coat follow the form of the other Sam's legs. It's a drawing about balance and harmony, which are the two most important symbols in my life. Too much will lead you to turn into your own Leader, not enough is not enough, you get the point.
Speaking of angels :
I was hesitant to talk about this one because I wanted to turn it into something relevant. But I don't know if I'll find the time to do that (also because I tend to lose interest in doodles very fast). So for now I'll just put some context and I'll keep the story for another day.
It all started with this picture I found on pinterest (that I think is used a lot by artist, I saw someone else using it recently and they weren't following me so they found it by themself) :
I'm a huge, HUGE, Diablo fan. It's not that visible because I mostly draw flashy stuff (though in my upcoming arts it will be more obvious) but this demon/angel aesthetic inspired me a lot. It's, again, about "not everything is fully good or wrong". It's about the Eternal War between angels and demons and there's no "good side". Of course you'd be tempted to follow angels because, well, they're angels and we did follow Tyrael who loved humanity and tried to protect it. But Tyrael felt for that, it was a sin. You see, in Diablo's lore humans are half angel and half demon, they're born of the forbidden love between Lilith, a demon and Inarius, an angel. So they're abominations to the purety of angels because they only see them as demon spawn, they fail to see the good in them. Eventually, even their Father Inarius turned his back on his children to regain his place in Heaven, because to angel, Pride and Society is more important than anything. And sure, Lilith did some bad things to humans (she's a villainess, I'm not excusing her, I love her as a villainess alright), but as the game goes on you understand that her goal might be to protect humanity from her own father. There's a lot of similitude between the Hulk lore and the Diablo lore and it's even more relevant since they made gamma spawns Hellish spawns.
Just like I see a few similitude between Mephisto (Lilith's father) and Sam. Being both embodiment of Hatred, being both represented by green, being both the smartest.
Sam isn't my OC, he belongs to Marvel. But he became my way to express myself and people tend to assume he is mine and I tend to treat him as such, in the way that I love integrating him in everything I do. If I play Sims, then I'll make a story revolving around Sam (and Bruce, as he is part of his history and a way to make him whole again) inspired by whatever happen to my Sam Sims. If I play Diablo, then I'll make a Diablo inspired lore revolving around Sam. It won't be Diablo directly, but it will be heavily inspired. A few years ago, I went to intense care for a few days (long story short I had an acute adrenal insufficiency which almost killed me because of medical abuses, again). Both my arms got destroyed by failed attempt to perfusing me (basically, my veins exploded).
I couldn't draw for a while, obviously. I remember people thinking I broke my arms and asking me how it happened because of the enormous black hematomas and the weird colors of my arms. So in order to kill time in hospital, I came up with a whole story for a Necromancer Sam inspired by Diablo (because I was playing a lot of Diablo III before I ended up here).
He had a whole lore, from his birth to his death. I had the whole map, how to make it "Marvel relevant" with other characters etc etc...
In fact this recent fanart is heavily inspired by the design I gave him back then, as this Necro's outfit was also inspired by Dynasty Warriors and so I thought it would suit the year of the Snake very well :
Maybe one day I'll share his lore. But anyway, in every Diablo game I play, my main is named Samuel and is a Necromancer (when it's possible) because of comics Sam's capacity to bring back the death and also because of how similar to the Golems his Redeemer was. I inspired this old Sam by my days on Diablo 3 so why not creating a MCU Sam one inspired by Diablo IV.
I made my necro a scortched demon, so that's the road I took, but again, I'm keeping this MCU Sam's lore for later. All you gotta know is he's a fallen angel turned into a scortched demon.
So I started doodling a design. I'm not 100% satisfied with it yet, I gotta rework on that when I feel like it.
So again, I'll talk about this lad and his story longer later (I hope)~
September now :
Our boy's 61st Anniversary was the 1st of September, so like every year I made something.
I wanted to go back to my roots, to something very flashy for the occasion. I felt like my latest arts this past year lacked of unatural overly saturated colors and I missed that.
This art is a lil' homage to the Incredible Hulk 115 cover, I kept Hulk's pose even if he's facing us and made him small to keep the threatening Sam aura of the cover (even if it was more of a mental projection and not Hulk being small but y'know, it's not a redraw either, it's an inspiration)
Strawberry cake because for no reason I enjoy having strawberries with Sam (dark chocolate for Bruce, lemon for MCU Sam etc etc...). Some noticed the "edible" crop I did on purpose and I'm glad you noticed that fun little touch. And of course, a lil' MCU Sam plush 'cause you can't not add him in the first anniversary involving him !
I'm a huge, huge, HUGE fan of games like Minecraft, Animal Crossing, Sims. Basically creative games.I need to create to live, it's like breathing for me. When I don't draw I look for inspiration in everything I do daily or I play games that give me this freedom of creating my own little place and control it. I guess this is what drawing is about for me, creating my own space I can control.
And it usually translate through Sam, I need him to express myself.
I once jokingly said "my pronouns are Sam/Sterns because I identify to a Leader" and I guess it's kinda that, I don't identify as Sam but I project on him a lot and he became my only way to truly express myself and have fun. It's complicated, if you feel the way I feel you'll get, otherwise it's impossible to explain anyway so I'm gonna go any deeper than that.So when I saw the Pokopia trailer, a Pokemon in a Minecraft/Animal Crossing vibe, I went crazy and my first thought was "I gotta draw Ditto as my little guy" and I did lol.
It took me, what, 40min maybe. It's a very quick doodle. But it was super fun to do, a good occasion to test some brushes and try something different also. And what a fresh air it is, even for such a simple thing.
That's my biggest problem with commissions, I gotta stick to an artstyle when I work on them because that's what people expect from me when they buy and I spend most of my drawing time doing commissions so I don't really have time to experiment and do other things. But lately I've been trying to keep time to do that.
I really don't want to talk about this one yet, it serves another purpose that I have yet to do (it was cancelled 3x already sadly, I hope I can do that in December but y'know). So for now I'll remain silent.
And finally, October :
This one has its own post -HERE-
Initially, there were a whole post about it. But now that I'm doing "monthly updates" I thought it would be more interesting and relevant to discuss what I've been discussing in this doodle in another kind of post. (I keep going back and forth with what I want with this blog but I need everything to be properly organized to not lose my mind alright). The idea behind this doodle is very simple, MCU Sam reacting to the Captain America and Red Hulk costumes coming out for this Halloween. Minimum effort because like I said existing is kinda painful lately so drawing is even more LOL.
I like doing these lil' series of MCU Bruce trying to rehabilite Sam into being a normal human being again. It's a very exagerated MCU Samuce version of how my fiance is teaching me how to enjoy life again (like I said, my MCU Sam arts are often personal). I never tried to poisonned children though, don't worry. But it's still based on a little memory of my past. Halloween isn't a popular thing in France, unfortunatly for my edgy emo ass. But at some point, French capitalism tried to bring Halloween here to sell candies and deco and shit. It didn't work and lasted a few years but as a kid I was able to experience that, go from doors to doors with my little vampire costume to get candies. And once we were home, me and my siblings would put everything together, weight it and share in 4 exact parts to be sure nobody had less than the other. And my mom would throw away everything that wasn't protected with papers in fear someone would poison our ass, not lethal shit but enough to have us experience explosive diarrhea. That's how this doodle was born.I don't think MCU Sam would enjoy poisonning kids OF COURSE, it's more of the PTSD these costumes brought him but also because he went through so much tortures, he just normalized it to the point of having absolutly weird destructive and dangerous behaviors he considers "harmless". To him it's merely a little prank to "show them" because they hurt his feelings, basically.Then again, it's just a silly doodle, no need to look at it deeper than a joke about how Sam can't human with absolutly exagerated situations. But that's also the point of these doodles, like I said, exagerating to explore parts of their personality, that's why I wanted to mention that.I also like the idea of Sam trying to fake being "normal" with that creepy smile of him, thinking it's totally a normal human thing to do but just looking absolutly creepy and uncanny doing so because it's unnatural for him.
It's something we could witnessed in Immortal Hulk, Sam disguised as Rick doing a joke while everyone around him is dying because joking is just what Rick does and then having Jackie yelling at him because of how inappropriate it was and Sam apologizing (and being surprisingly himself and genuine when he does), explaining that he doesn't know how to human.
In this moment you have Sam being Sam, you can tell through the orange sky behind him. It's the Leader apologizing here, not Sam pretending to be Rick, Sam being Sam and being honest. Looking away with a bit of guilt. Sam was very human in this run, through his total inhability to be a real human ironically. And it's something that inspires me a lot when I write MCU Sam. This fascinating discordance between his humanity and the lack of it.
I'm not as clumsy as Sam, I know how to adult, how to be serious (I had to learn earlier than most people who call autistic people "children", unfortunatly). But I spent a decade stuck in my bedroom without seeing the world so sometimes I guess I'm too much (in a harmless way, but I know I can be very annoyingly loud and clingy around people I like and/or admire). People tend to think autistic people cannot function, aren't actual adult and don't understand shit, but it's the other way around really. We experience everything way harder and so more violently, like a slap in the face. That's why a lot of autistic people are sensitives to things related to their senses. Taste, smell, touch, sound, light etc etc... Music is nice until it's too loud, light is nice until it's too bright, you get the idea. That's what autism feels like. I think this post is a good illustration of that, look at all the things I need to say. It's the absolute incapacity to shut down your brain and always going through a never ending loud and stressful flow of thoughts. Everything makes sense not because we're smarter or whatever bullshit you can read about autism but because we NEED to give it a meaning. Everything needs a context, a reason to be, a coherence that is coherent to our own vision and reality. That's why I keep going back and forth with what I want for this blog also lol.
I can pay my bills, I understand management, I know how to behave around people, how to be respectful and polite. How to pretend to be a very casual adult. But I still have a hard time being "normal", if that makes sense, because it makes me feel unnatural and inhuman. And that's how this discordance between how uncanny, uncomfortable and inhuman I feel when I have to "perform normality" and how it's supposed to make me look "normal" feels like, it feels like MCU Sam's creepy smile. It feels like comics Sam throwing jokes with people dying around him.
It's not something you can comprehend through words only, it's the kind of thing you need to experience. You can't really explain a taste, a smell, you can't properly describe colors to someone who can't see them. It's the same here, you can't explain autism and traumas to people who don't experience it the exact same way you do.
Because for one there's many many spectrum, autism is more of an umbrella than the name of something specific. Second because apparently it's the worst possible disease for parents so in people's head it's like having a deadly cancer and they won't go deeper than that. If you tell them you're autistic then you're sick and you need help. It's not a disease. The only reason autistic children feel uncomfortable is because you force them into an inadequate model. If you take the triangle toy and you force it into the star shaped hole and it won't work it's not because the triangle is broken or defective, it's because you put it in the wrong fucking hole. It's the same with autistic people, you force them into a model that isn't meant for them so they can't properly function and then you blame them for not fitting in a star shaped hole instead of giving them a triangle one.
Though even if it was a mental illness so what anyway. Most mental illnesses are harmless and people suffer it only because you make sure they remember being different is a punishment and they should suffer it.But anyway, the point is I'm a weirdo who's learning normal life experience again after what felt like a whole life of suffering and loneliness and that's what I enjoy expressing through these silly MCU Sam & Bruce doodles. I want Sam to rediscover simple things we all take for granted until we can no longer experience it, like I do. It's the closest I can give you to experience my normality, through MCU Sam's doodles.
This one has its own post -HERE-
I have a little Discord group of 4 persons (including myself) who are big big fan of Tim Blake Nelson and Sam. One of them is from Japan, one of them is from Kazakhstan, then you have me who's a French Parisian and the last one who's a French Alsacian. And idk, I think it's beautiful being from very different part of the globe with different cultures and languages and being connected through our own shared love and passion. So we had this idea of drawing MCU Sam and Bruce experiencing the casual things of our different cultures. I'm working on a real full art of Sam and Bruce in Paris that will take forever to pull, but in the meantime I made a very small and quick 5min "experience parisian life" doodle as a joke. We have the reputation to be rude and grumpy and it's a real thing honestly lol. I also like to see Sam as an overly protective kind of person and Bruce having to control his wrath (which is ironic for Bruce to have to control anyone's wrath but that's also that sweet irony that I like about their MCU version).
Next one :
It also had a full post about erotism and stuff but, again, I wanna keep that for another kind of post. Before I dive in I gotta remind you that I headcanon MCU Sam with a touch PTSD (not comics Sam, just MCU Sam). Understand by this that everytime I draw MCU Sam, I keep the idea in mind that touches not just make him uncomfortable, but also trigger violent traumatic reactions from him. That's why I like to imagine him hidding his skin under a few layer of clothings when I design him in a more Leader-ish outfit, so nothing can directly touch him :
The intial idea was to have Sam not just allowing but also initiating a touch by kindly putting Bruce's hand on his chest in order to comfort him. Imagine how much Sam cares to face such an intense fear and discomfort for Bruce. It makes everything so much more touching, so much more intense.It's Sam who suffered but it's him comforting Bruce. Because that's what a real healthy love is about, it's about sharing everything, including pain and so allowing people to feel bad for you and to deeply suffer it even if you're the one living it. You have your curse and theirs is to suffer out of love without being able to express it because "it's you who suffer".I usually draw MCU Sam with a hood when he's around Bruce, because I like to think he would hide his head in order to look more human around him, in fear that if Bruce truly sees him he would just back in fear and abandon him. After all, Bruce came to him and got him in this situation to get rid of a monster and there's no way Sam wouldn't think about that and fear how Bruce would react if he sees Sam as the monster he fears he is.
(I'm drawing a short comics about that, btw, but it will take forever to be done 'cause I have several months worth of work atm).
But I wanted Sam to be as exposed as possible. To accept what he became around Bruce because Bruce's love makes him accept that by feeling human.
Initially I wanted Sam to say "it doesn't hurt anymore", not "it doesn't hurt when you're here" because the second one implies that he still suffers and I guess that's not what Bruce wants to hear in this moment. But I don't believe in the importance of lies to comfort people. Actually I think there's something absolutly beautiful in the sincerity to tell someone that you do suffer.I'm disabled and neurodA (I separate them, I don't see neuroatypies as a disability the same way my disabilities are unrelated to it) and I'm dehumanized over both. The only people who make me feel human and reminds me that I'm allowed to exist and be who I am are the people who love me. It's only when they're here, it's only through their love that it doesn't hurt anymore. So when Bruce is around, Sam doesn't suffer his dehumanization, because Bruce makes him feel human. And this reality is way more beautiful and powerful than a lie.
I'm blessed with the most amazing possible lover. He started dating me when he was young and wanted to see the world and I was dying. I was ugly (because no matter what people say, you're never pretty when you're sick, or at least you cannot feel this way) but to him I was the most beautiful person alive. He made me feel pretty and relevent in a moment of my life I felt so bad about what I was. He gave me the strength to overcome so many of my fears because I wanted to comfort him the way Sam wants to comfort Bruce here.
I didn't have to mention my fiance in this post to explain my mindset, you would all have understand it anyway. I just wanted to talk about him because I love him, he is my humanity and so a part of my arts. They cannot exist without him the way they cannot exist without me because he gave me a heart and he taught me to live. To live for myself, not for him. It was never about him, everytime he cheared me up and helped me, it was always about me. He never made it about him even when he was in pain because his love for me had him worrying.
I always say he sacrificed his life for me, his dreams, his youth. I made him grow too fast, the same way I had to. But he never saw it as a sacrifice. For him it was normal because I am everything to him the same way he is everything to me. I once asked him "why me, you could get so much better and comfortable" and he said "because nobody can ever make me feel as loved and needed as you do" and I feel the same about him. He makes me feel loved, but also necessary.
Love is the most sefless and selfish feeling. You're willing to give up everything for that one person and destroy yourself for them while wanting them to make you feel special and better than anyone else. It's a very funny and beautiful contradiction.
And a little chibi to end this post. It's gonna be the sticker reward you'll get if you're a member in January (I'll post a sneak peek of the stickers in this blog later, it's already on BlueSky tho, there's a new holo effect, it looks absolutly fantastic !). Since it's a sticker you're gettin' in February, I wanted a St Valentine vibe. To be more specific, I wanted the same vibe as the first St Valentine reward sticker I ever made :
I still love it a lot, it's a different vibe. I know a few people will like it more because of the very vibrant color palette and big plain black and stuff but my chibi artstyle back then was way too inconsistent, I had a hard time reproducing what I was doing from an art to another. Second, it took too many time, so some of them were way more "lazy" I needed to rush to get them on time. And last, I was an absolute rookie in term of physical merch. This artwork is a RGB, so once it's printed colors are fucked up since the color palette is different. I wasn't using glitters or holo effect like now so the background could have these big black lines. Now it would make the holo lookin' bad. Because stickers are small also, the more details you put, the less visible it gets. So basically, with time I learnt that for this kind of stuff, less is better. When I started making these stickers, I made basically 10 bucks a month (once you remove shipping and printing), I had to print all by myself with a bad quality printer and paper and cut them down and most of these stickers have been eaten by time and Sun because of that. Now I can afford a proper printing company, made them UV proof and waterproof, add these holo effect and stuff, making me save a lot of time and having a way better quality sticker, and I still make 100 bucks a month. Sure it's far from enough to make a living but it's nice enough. I hope I can grow and make more with time, the best outcome for me would be to make at least 500 bucks a month with Patreon and Ko-Fi alone so I could work part time on commissions and keep more time to work on my own projects and stuff but it's a near impossible goal to reach and I don't promote my Ko-Fi and Patreon a lot lately 'cause I've been reworking them lol so it certainly won't grow. But still, watching this old sticker design makes me happy. A few years ago, my mom had to bring me my meals on my room 'cause I didn't even have the strength to wake up to eat otherwise and now I have a job I love. Sure, I don't make a lot (not a lot of artists make a decent living and I'm not one of them yet), but for someone who wasn't supposed to work at all I think I'm doing good enough lol and I love seeing the evolution of my artstyle but also my career as a whole. As for the cake, like I said above, strawberries for comics Sam, dark chocolate for comics Bruce. Lemon / lime for MCU Sam and blueberries for MCU Bruce. Alright, that's all for the Oct update. I'm posting this very late, it's almost December already, meaning I'll post the Nov update pretty soon but this month has been some Hell of a ride (I'll talk about that in December's November update). Next months will be shorter as I'll only have to talk about one month (so usually 5 arts at best), it will be more "digest" to read for you also. And like you saw, I'm testing new miniatures. I hope you like it ! It's closer to "me", it feels more professional and it's also more attractive. So until next time, enjoy~
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